May 7, 2009

I'm so sorry...

I want to first apologize to Shannon, it was wrong of me to post on Facebook the things I did, and then I next want to aplogize to the students and everyone else, i never ment to hurt you guys as well... I hope you guys can forgive me...

For those of you who don't know, i'll tell you now, today was my last day of Master's. I am not kicked out, nor did I quit persay, but after a lot of prayer, and discussion with Shannon, Ashley, and Kaytee, I feel that the best thing for me to do is to move on to whatever is next for me...

I've posted some song lyrics below that parts I feel really capture my heart and what is going on right now... (i've bolded and italicized what I feel really jumps out and captures my heart and mind)

"Wrap me in a bolt of lightning
Send me on my way still smiling
Maybe that's the way I should go,
Straight into the mouth of the unknown
I left the spare key on the table
Never really thought I'd be able to say
I merely visit on the weekends
I lost my whole life and a dear friend"

I'm sorry to you, but i think it's best that I leave, and that I move on into the unknown...


"I've said it so many times
I would change my ways
No, nevermind
God knows I've tried"

I have tried so hard to change things, and said I would, and some things did change.


[Chorus]
"Call me a sinner, call me a saint
Tell me it's over I'll still love you the same
Call me your favorite, call me the worst
Tell me it's over I don't want you to hurt
It's all that I can say. So, I'll be on my way"

I still love you guys, and I always will. I have done a lot this year, and hurt a lot of you, and I'm sorry for that, and you should never have had to walk through that...


"I finally put it all together,
But nothing really lasts forever
I had to make a choice that was not mine,
I had to say goodbye for the last time
I kept my whole life in suitcase,
Never really stayed in one place
Maybe that's the way it should be,
You know I live my life like a gypsy"

It was time for me to move on, and while it was my choice, in the end, I believe it was God's choice as well...

[Pre-Chorus]

[Chorus]

I'll always keep you inside, you healed my
Heart and my life... And you know I try.

I'll keep you guys in my heart, and I'm still here if you need me. I love you...

[Chorus]

Please feel free to talk to me if you have any questions or anything you want to say...

p.s. lyrics are from the song "Call Me" by Shinedown...

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